La Vie Secrèt de Tubzey

What a year it has been. 

It rains bulbously at this moment of the night.

My mind and body are so exhausted.

My heart is agitated, but willing.

Being an IT manager is not easy even if I have a small team. In fact, any movement of your leadership gets questioned especially in a small team among wolves of leaders. I am praying so I don’t become like them. I am praying, so I stay humble, compassionate and hopeful.

Summary: I got promoted from analyst to manager in less than 6 months. There was no transition training period, so I am self taught. I reached for every and all resources available to assist in my progression. I truly feel grateful for the support. I do not forget I am still among wolves.

God, gather the strength in me and let me always fight for what is just and good in your eyes. Right now, I have no strength. I feel like disappearing day by day, and there are those among me who wish for me to disappear. Alas, my wishes are only out of pain and fatigue. I will not disappear. I will reappear with fire blazing through the weeds in my heart. 

I am pushing every day, and I continue to hope. 
Are you all out there feeling this way?

What a year it has been, yet.